In the wake of losing Vail, we pretty much live day to day. Ok, more like hour to hour. Despite needing to focus on the future for basic life functions, li...

My internal dialog has changed significantly since the day Vail died. Understandably, as I have changed in ways I never knew were possible. Ways that shoul...

After we lost Vail in September of 2019, Steve and I couldn't sleep at night. No parent could, after their healthy, happy 16 month old child died in her sle...

When I was a working paramedic there were many tough situations in which I was forced to work. Pretty much every single shift I, there was a challenge that ...

When I was in college, I minored in psychology. Once I left, I never looked back. There have been very few times in my life that I have even thought about ...

In my grief process I am constantly amazed at how different every single day is. I say this, because unlike any other period in my life, my days are almost ...

Let me start by acknowledging a few of our new realities. We are all suffering. Some more than others, so I think we can agree suffering exists on a slidin...

Our world is a merciless, brutal place. This is certainly not news to me. Sadly, a whole lot of people are about to learn just how unrelenting it is. The ...

With COVID-19 hysteria sweeping the world, I find myself deep in self reflection. Not just about the loss of our perfect Vail, but about the world we live i...

A friend of mine said something today that really made me think about how my life must look from the outside; from the viewpoint of mothers who cannot compre...

It took 5 months. Well actually like 3 months, but who's counting? Let me explain. Those of us in the SUDC community have one place to turn for support se...

This is the dictionary definition: “Happiness is that feeling that comes over you when you know life is good and you can't help but smile. It's the opposite ...

One of the hardest things for me to do now, is to be in a room with other moms and their kids. It’s difficult for so many reasons but the main one for me is...

This is the worst. The only thing more heartbreaking than the pain of my own loss, is the heartache felt by my surviving child. If I can barely string toge...

Every day is a struggle. The loss of our child is a weight that is unbearable. Most days, Steve and I accomplish our must do list, focus on the new busines...

I hate the word normal. It implies a level of conformity to social pressures. To fit a defined set of standards. What is normal for one person may be comple...

When you are grieving, people are quick to offer support. What they aren't quick to offer is understanding. It's because they can't possibly understand. T...

Today was a hard day. And not just for us. As we push forward with trying to create awareness and understand SUDC more, we are faced with thoughts and reali...

I'm going to rep all the SUDC moms and dads here tonight. All the parents who know the sudden loss of their child, no matter the age or the cause and all th...

This is a post about something that affects us all. Money. I have to admit these days I don’t much care about money. I acknowledge it’s necessity in survi...