Fear. A construct we are all familiar with. Rational or irrational, we are all afraid of something. Before we lost Vail, my biggest fea...

Tonight, is a night like most others. Twilight falls and the hardest part of my day arrives. It's the witching hour, the loss-parent ver...

Imagine that you have beautiful oak tree in your front yard. It has been there for 40 years, always growing, its leaves falling and bran...

As a busy mom of two active girls, there was never silence in our house. No silence, no downtime and little reprieve during the day. Wh...

In the wake of losing Vail, we pretty much live day to day. Ok, more like hour to hour. Despite needing to focus on the future for basi...

My internal dialog has changed significantly since the day Vail died. Understandably, as I have changed in ways I never knew were possib...

After we lost Vail in September of 2019, Steve and I couldn't sleep at night. No parent could, after their healthy, happy 16 month old c...

When I was a working paramedic there were many tough situations in which I was forced to work. Pretty much every single shift I, there w...

When I was in college, I minored in psychology. Once I left, I never looked back. There have been very few times in my life that I have...

In my grief process I am constantly amazed at how different every single day is. I say this, because unlike any other period in my life,...

Let me start by acknowledging a few of our new realities. We are all suffering. Some more than others, so I think we can agree sufferin...

Our world is a merciless, brutal place. This is certainly not news to me. Sadly, a whole lot of people are about to learn just how unre...

With COVID-19 hysteria sweeping the world, I find myself deep in self reflection. Not just about the loss of our perfect Vail, but about...

A friend of mine said something today that really made me think about how my life must look from the outside; from the viewpoint of mothe...

It took 5 months. Well actually like 3 months, but who's counting? Let me explain. Those of us in the SUDC community have one place to...

This is the dictionary definition: “Happiness is that feeling that comes over you when you know life is good and you can't help but smile...

One of the hardest things for me to do now, is to be in a room with other moms and their kids. It’s difficult for so many reasons but th...

This is the worst. The only thing more heartbreaking than the pain of my own loss, is the heartache felt by my surviving child. If I ca...

Every day is a struggle. The loss of our child is a weight that is unbearable. Most days, Steve and I accomplish our must do list, focu...

I hate the word normal. It implies a level of conformity to social pressures. To fit a defined set of standards. What is normal for one ...